So I’m trying to understand but I still don’t get it. So many things left unsaid sound far better written down.

First of all, let me tell you that I don’t hate you, in fact I still love you, and if today were tomorrow, I would still love you today. I wanted to make you happy, but you probably didn’t want that. The problem is that twice I went in and I got my spirit crushed, twice I tried and I got my hopes shut down. Don’t worry, I don’t blame you, I have nothing to blame you for if I don’t blame myself first for loving you more than you loved me. On this day I blame timing, because as much as I hoped for, it was not our time. The only thing we both know is that my spirit will come back up someday and I will be fine, heck, nobody has died out of love.

You asked what could you do for me; one kiss would have made the difference, I know that, I’m a good kisser.

You know you didn’t have to put words in my mouth that day, you didn’t have to tell me I should find someone better; I never liked it when people think for me. I’m 28 years old with a steady job, a car, a well-kept apartment, and a life full of friends. I am old enough to know what or whom I want in my life and to know who’s good enough for me, and I’m sure it was you. If you ever thought otherwise after all the good times we had, that only means you didn’t know me as well as I thought you did.

I won’t be like those guys who swear you won’t find someone better, I’m sure you will, in fact, I’ll pray for it. You’re a great catch and deserve nothing but happiness and someone who treats you right. I pray when he comes your way, you’ll learn to see through your fears and confusion, and give him a better treatment than you did me. I can only promise you that he will not see you like I did nor love you like I do.

Please know that if I see you on the street, I won’t avoid you or back away, I’ve got nothing to hide. If you approach me I won’t be rude, you don’t deserve such hate. If you ask me about my life, I will tell you how I’m doing, since we were always so good at “the chat”, I wouldn’t dare waste that moment by just saying “fine”.

Finally, I want you to understand that maybe, one day, you’ll come to realize that I did nothing wrong. I treated you like a princess and more; and I came into your life and I rocked your world and you know it. And it wasn’t some evil scheme to win you over, that was simply me and a sample of how our future would’ve been together. I gave you what most girls want but never look for… I gave you honesty, loyalty and unconditional love. But don’t worry, it’s not a total loss; if all this made you smile for at least a second, then I’ll take the good memories and treasure that smile forever, that perfect smile.

If time has passed and you’re all better and find yourself still having a feeling, do not be afraid to swallow your pride, I encourage you to take a chance, because doing that would make me admire you even more. Only, if you one day dare swallow your pride and ask for another chance at us; if it’s today, tomorrow or a few years from now, I wish I could guarantee that when you do, you won’t be a one day too late. Every moment before that, I’ll be waiting for you… ’cause that’s what I do.

That’s all you need to know for now. Thank you for listening.