Remember the first time I saw you? I do… many moons ago. I remember those big round eyes as well as that smile; the small chat, the flirting, that funny little way your nose wrinkled when you talked or smiled, all the things that made my head spin backwards. I fell completely for you and you didn’t have to move a finger. I’m still trying to figure it out how you did it.

After a while you managed to get me, and we lived happily ever after… for a while at least, I just wish it had lasted longer. We had our troubles, but what couple doesn’t? I didn’t think they would turn out that bad. You broke my heart, you know that? It wasn’t a teenage crush like everyone still keeps saying, I really did love you. You left and I thought I would never see you again…

Years did pass and we met again, I thought you looked different, but I was just happy to see you once more. You didn’t have that conviction in your heart like you used to, still you managed to catch my eye. Now you were shy and quiet, and I never thought that I would fall for you again, but you were different. And the world made sense again, I was happy and I didn’t care what happened last time, I had forgiven you without having to ask me. We had the best time… what happened then? Was it me this time?

Remember that third time I saw you? You managed to stay young, and I had grown up a bit. That didn’t stop you this time, as young as you were you sure knew what you wanted. I was afraid of seeing you again; so different, so young, so naive, I was sure you’d be trouble. I wasn’t looking for you, that’s for sure. How do you manage to always find me? Do you remember how you did it this time? I still have that little doll you gave me. I admired your patience and determination, you knew we were meant for each other and you were sure to have let me know that…. and we were happy once more. I always wondered where did you get so jealous all of a sudden? Where did you learn that? You didn’t used to be like that, and you sure knew I didn’t like that. All the crazy talk and yelling was never my thing… I had to let you go for now, it wasn’t our time.

Remember how we became really good friends all of a sudden? I don’t know how it started, but I recall the late night calls that lasted until morning, that was the fourth time I saw you. We bonded so easy and so quickly that neither of us noticed we were falling for each other once more, but we did. I thought it would work this time. Our love didn’t spunk out like a sudden burst, it took its flow and appeared out of a close friendship that was born between two strangers.

I can’t believe that last time I saw you was so long ago. I must admit that you looked amazing this time. We were only together for a short period now and even though I felt you weren’t as close as I was, I still managed to love every minute. Those big blue eyes still fly in my dreams sometimes. It’s a shame you had to leave.

I have had a lifetime, yet I have just seen you 5 times. You think that’s enough? Every now and then I think I see you, but I end up being wrong, it’s someone else with your face, or your mind, or your heart. You changed your appearance so many times these past encounters that it has been hard for me to recognize you. I wonder if you will be able to find me this time? I know I didn’t make it easy for you by moving to three different cities and five different apartments since then. I have changed a lot too you know? In essence I feel I’m still the same, but that is for you to judge I guess.

I wonder what your name will be this time?